I thought I had it all figured out. My life had been scripted (by me, of course!) and every “i” was dotted and every “t” crossed.
Graduate from college in 4 years…check!
Attain a master’s degree…check!
Get a good job…check!
Build a home…check!
Get married by 27….
Ok, get married by 30…
Ok, get married by 33…
Hold on! Something was not right. I told God all about my script and for years, we seemed to be on the same page…until now.
So, I began to pray for a husband. I knew I was a good woman! Look at all my check marks and I loved the Lord. But every year, while being fitted for yet another bridesmaid’s dress, my script seemed to be falling apart. I did not understand. In Sunday school, I learned that if you ask, it shall be given. I won’t even tell you how many times I asked God, but it seemed my husband was nowhere to be found.
What was happening to my plan?
Have you ever found yourself in my shoes? Maybe not as it pertains to a spouse, but I’m sure God has interrupted your plans before. Could it be because we want our way more than we want His will? We often think we know what’s best. We mentally document our days, present and future, and ask Him to cosign. We pray for Him to help us implement our plans never asking about His plan for our lives.
And there are times when He will allow us to do just what we want to do. It happened to the people of Israel in 1 Samuel 8.
They had a plan. Samuel, who led them back to God, was getting old. His sons were not worthy to fill his shoes, so Israel took notice of the structure of other nations and decided they wanted a king too. God warned against having a king. He even told them the problems they would encounter with a king…they would take the best of Israel’s fields, a tenth of their grain and flocks would belong to the king, Israel would become their slaves, their sons would be forced to run in front of chariots, and their daughters would serve the king. Of even greater significance was the fact that Israel was told, “You will cry out for relief from the king you have chosen, and the Lord will not answer you in that day.” After hearing all this, they still thought their plan was best. And God gave them Saul.
Although I never suffered the detriment Israel experienced, my story could have ended very differently had I not stopped being selfish, and placed His will before my wants. Remaining in a self-centered state could have resulted in me having a husband (a Saul), but it would have been evident that he was not God’s best for me.
So what’s more important…Your Wants or His Will? No, marriage was not checked off my list at age 27 as I thought, but HAPPILY MARRIED at 34 and STILL HAPPY….CHECK!!!!!!!!!!
I Choose His Will!